Jesus.

So I started the gospel of John the other day, for a few reasons: 1. I've been discouraged and the gospel is always encouraging 2. Paul read John 17 at church and I remembered how much I am in love with Jesus' prayer for all believers. Not that the reasons matter, just thought I would share.

Anyway, so I am reading, and today I read about Jesus feeding the 5,000 and how when He explained that He is the bread of life. People turned away from him, thousands of people, and it isn't because they didn't understand, it's because that isn't what they wanted or expected. Previously in verse 15 it states, "Jesus, knowing that they intended to come and make him king by force, withdrew again to a mountain by himself." The people wanted a political figure, a king, who made grand gestures. Instead they had a poor, carpenter, who often chose to perform His miracles in secret. My thought on this was, how often do I have this idea of what I think God wants me to do, because it's what I think is best, do I put God in this box of expectations & when He doesn't fulfill those am I disappointed? We have all these ideas and concepts about God, some of which are true, but some probably barely scratch the surface of who He is. I don't want to have expectations of God or put Him into a box, I want my mind to be blown daily with new knowledge of Him and how He works. The exciting part is this is a life adventure, it is impossible to know everything about God, there is so much and we can't even understand all of it! 


I love Christmas. December is probably one of my favorite months, but I think I'm beginning to love Lent and Easter more. There is just this desire to pray more, to really think about the mysteriess of God, and to rejoice in Jesus' resurrection.